"Well love was kind, for a time...Were we too young? Our heads too strong? To bear the weight of these lover's eyes. 'Cause I feel numb, beneath your tongue..beneath the curse of these lover's eyes.."
I have been pretty absent from the social media world these past few weeks, and to be quite honest I have just had a lot of crap going on in my personal life. So many thoughts, decisions feelings, memories, all running wild in my mind. I have a lot going on that I'm not exactly ready to share with the world yet, but in time, I will. I have just felt numb for the most part. It is crazy to me how quickly life can change. How you can be soaring through your everyday life and then BAM something or someone sneaks up on you and throws everything upside down. This can of course happen for the best, or for the worst. In my case it has been for the best. Although things are hard right now at this moment, I know when it is over, it will be worth it.
I am aware that I am rambling and most of you will have no idea what I'm talking about, but bare with me. I have been doing a lot of thinking and praying about this current situation, spent a lot of time crying, and even more time laughing and smiling while thinking about the future, after this storm passes. It's very depressing in life when things you had hoped for and pictured happening don't happen, or when you realize that what you want from someone or saw happening with that person, is not the same thing that they want or see happening. I am a firm believer in the quote that "everything happens for a reason" and "what's meant to be with always find it's way." I have lived by these quotes for my entire life..., okay I've lived by then from the first time I heard them, you guys get it..I honestly feel that nothing happens that isn't suppose to happen, or happens without a purpose, although what that purpose is can be terribly difficult to understand in the given moment, with time things make sense.
I am also the type of person who gives everything they have in commitments in my life, whether it is a relationship, a project, a theatrical production, a youtube video, whatever it is. I give my whole heart in things that are important to me, and when I love, I love completely, fully, and with all that I have..This can be a good and bad thing. I don't think you should ever make another person your world, and I don't ever want to be someones world. That is way to much responsibility and pressure, and when things don't work out, what then? I never want to base my happiness on someone else, meaning I don't want to only be happy with someone. I want to be happy with myself. That is tough, but achievable. You have to truly and completely love yourself before you can love anyone else.
I want to say more, and write more and I will, when the time is right. For now, I just want to remind all of you reading this that life is short, happiness is crucial, and it is okay to think of yourself and want to do what makes you happy in life. You should never settle for less than the very best and you should ALWAYS ALWAYS look in the mirror and know that you are worth it. You are worth happiness, love, security, commitment, family, whatever you want in life, You are worth achieving that. Sometimes what you want is not what other people want, and that sucks, and can be sad, but that is life. Everyone is on their own path in life, searching for happiness and we all deserve to find that. Although things may hurt, and you may have fear and worry and feel guilty for thinking of yourself, remember that you only get one life (that is what I believe,) You get one chance to achieve your dreams, travel the world, meet new people, face your fears, etc. Make your life worth it because in the end, it will be you looking back on your life and you want it to be worth it. Every little piece of it. No regrets, No "If I had only" ..You want to be happy with the things you did.
"You only get one life to live, so forget about what anyone thinks, forget their opinions because in reality they don't matter, you matter, what you want matters, and who you choose to become matters. Replace anyone negative in your life with positive happy people that make you happy. Ignore those who don't give you the time of day and remember that in the end it really is their loss. Go after your dreams because only you can achieve them and you can, you can do whatever you put your mind to and there is no one out there that can stop you, no one but yourself. Be yourself, be real and be true because no one is going to do it for you. It's all you. Don't waste your time on someone who isn't going to give you what you need out of life. In the end, it's going to be you asking yourself if it was all worth it. And you want it to be worth it, every last minute of it.♥" - Me
I love you guys,
xoxo
-V
I have been pretty absent from the social media world these past few weeks, and to be quite honest I have just had a lot of crap going on in my personal life. So many thoughts, decisions feelings, memories, all running wild in my mind. I have a lot going on that I'm not exactly ready to share with the world yet, but in time, I will. I have just felt numb for the most part. It is crazy to me how quickly life can change. How you can be soaring through your everyday life and then BAM something or someone sneaks up on you and throws everything upside down. This can of course happen for the best, or for the worst. In my case it has been for the best. Although things are hard right now at this moment, I know when it is over, it will be worth it.
I am aware that I am rambling and most of you will have no idea what I'm talking about, but bare with me. I have been doing a lot of thinking and praying about this current situation, spent a lot of time crying, and even more time laughing and smiling while thinking about the future, after this storm passes. It's very depressing in life when things you had hoped for and pictured happening don't happen, or when you realize that what you want from someone or saw happening with that person, is not the same thing that they want or see happening. I am a firm believer in the quote that "everything happens for a reason" and "what's meant to be with always find it's way." I have lived by these quotes for my entire life..., okay I've lived by then from the first time I heard them, you guys get it..I honestly feel that nothing happens that isn't suppose to happen, or happens without a purpose, although what that purpose is can be terribly difficult to understand in the given moment, with time things make sense.
I am also the type of person who gives everything they have in commitments in my life, whether it is a relationship, a project, a theatrical production, a youtube video, whatever it is. I give my whole heart in things that are important to me, and when I love, I love completely, fully, and with all that I have..This can be a good and bad thing. I don't think you should ever make another person your world, and I don't ever want to be someones world. That is way to much responsibility and pressure, and when things don't work out, what then? I never want to base my happiness on someone else, meaning I don't want to only be happy with someone. I want to be happy with myself. That is tough, but achievable. You have to truly and completely love yourself before you can love anyone else.
"You only get one life to live, so forget about what anyone thinks, forget their opinions because in reality they don't matter, you matter, what you want matters, and who you choose to become matters. Replace anyone negative in your life with positive happy people that make you happy. Ignore those who don't give you the time of day and remember that in the end it really is their loss. Go after your dreams because only you can achieve them and you can, you can do whatever you put your mind to and there is no one out there that can stop you, no one but yourself. Be yourself, be real and be true because no one is going to do it for you. It's all you. Don't waste your time on someone who isn't going to give you what you need out of life. In the end, it's going to be you asking yourself if it was all worth it. And you want it to be worth it, every last minute of it.♥" - Me
I love you guys,
xoxo
-V
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